In my last blog I mentioned that the energy of Love Lucy is using my gorgeous creams and looking at yourself in the mirror, feeling Good, seeing the Good and feeling serenity regardless of what’s going on around you, well this story is a perfect example of just that….
As a single woman I obviously have a desire to find the right man and to settle down, but the journey so far has been incredibly challenging for me and I’d say for the majority of us who are looking for love these days. But it doesn’t have to be, it can feel beautiful when you flow in Self Love.
I’ve experienced a few of what we would call a situationship, I have not been in a committed relationship for almost 10 years and in that time I have overcome a lot so it’s fair to say I’m very much ready to meet my perfect match.
These situationships from the past have triggered all sorts for me, heartache/break, rejection, loneliness, abandonment, feeling inadequate, grief, sadness, insecurity, low self esteem, low self worth - the LOT! But I’m incredibly grateful for every single one (what I call collaborative soul/soulmate) because without them I would not be where and who I am now, which is probably one of the highest vibrations on the planet of Love, but before all of these experiences/encounters I was very much disconnected from my Truth of You (my soul). So I’ll say it again, incredibly grateful 🙏🏼 thank you ALL for the exponential growth and helping to navigate me back to who I truly am.
I can always tell when they’re a collaborative soul, they feel intense, strong chemistry (for both), lots of signs and synchronicities, hard to resist, a feeling of them potentially being the one and the meeting always absolutely feels like it was meant to happen.
The most recent one I knew straight away because I went for a little walk one day and he came into my life like something out of the f**** Truman show 😂 I just knew, you my friend are 100% either a blessing or a lesson but either way it felt magic and significant so I was absolutely exploring it, no holding back. Anyway, we met things happened and I thought the connection was beautiful, I could see so much Good in it and I could see and feel it in him too. I liked him, fun, funny, his voice notes, felt protective, masculine and consistent communication and his energy just felt very attractive, actually one of my favourites so far because he helped me to understand so much, more than what he will ever probably consciously realise.
I did feel scared though, through the connection it started to feel like another lesson and I thought “oh what is it that I need to learn now” 🤦🏻♀️ the lessons from the past had really hurt me so I put my guard up a little bit when I was noticing self sabotage and abandonment wounds surfacing. It was nothing major, easily dealt with but I really didn’t want to have to go through it all again. What I realise now which I didn’t at the time, that it was actually my body letting me know that he’s not ready for You. My energy knew, my origin energy who basically runs the show.
Anyway, it was another lesson and it ended, just like that, as fast as it began, completely cut off and out of my life no explanation, nothing, GONE! What I feared would happen, happened but this time it really wasn’t that bad, I didn’t feel affected by it and I think that was part of the learning for me to realise and celebrate how far I’ve come, plus lots of other spiritual growth and understanding.
Initially, I was like ouch that was really harsh and I was shocked and began questioning it but that only lasted about half a day. Now, this is magic because usually, from past connections and collaborative souls I’d be attached for a long time, not accepting or able to let go or move on and over analysing the absolute f**k out of the situation, trying to figure out why it happened and what the lesson was but this time I didn’t care, go if you need to it’s fine.
The day we met, before him on my little walk I actually bumped into another collab soul but I decided to walk a different way back because I was just absolutely so done with that one and didn’t want to pass him again. So I walked the long way around, a completely different path which I don’t normally do. It was a beautiful walk, it was raining slightly and everything looked really pretty and green and I remember feeling good and quite empowered. But then I walked straight into the arms of a new one, same day within an hour of each other 😂😂 you just can’t make this up.
But I chose differently this time, when it ended I could have chosen to focus on getting cut off and overthink, analyse and wonder if I did anything wrong or beat myself up for going for the wrong man again, or worrying that I’m repeating the same old patterns but where is that gonna get me? Nowhere, just stuck and going around in circles. No thank you, this time I choose myself and I choose to flow in Self Love, there’s always Good when you flow that way.
I still feel compassion and the Good in him because I feel what happened was more considerate, rather than the intention to be mean or to hurt me. He knew he wasn’t ready to give me what I wanted and I knew too, so it had to end with or without explanation and I’d much prefer sooner rather than later. No explanation is better because you can create your own perspective, one that feels good and true to you. The way that it happened was the most self loving outcome for us both.
I also just want to make it clear that just because I see and feel things from a divine perspective does absolutely not mean that I will tolerate any kind of disrespect or poor behaviour, not anymore. This is about seeing the Good for what it is, appreciating that it happened and self loving so much that if it doesn’t work out, it barely even touches you.
I’m sharing this because I know that there’s so many out there who experience the same thing in dating, you meet someone it feels good and you think could this be it and then something happens and they’re gone, it’s not easy when the same thing happens consistently because you begin to lose hope.
But what if we could see it differently, what if the decision was the right choice and Good for All involved, even if it seems harsh and upsetting, What if we could accept that it’s ok for people to do what feels right for them in the moment, no explanation needed and it doesn’t mean they’re a bad person or you, What if we didn’t allow this to affect us and we just carried on loving ourselves and trusting that what’s right for us will eventually come along and stay, What if we could love the beauty and growth we experience with those people even if it doesn’t last very long or end well, What if we could allow the situation to just BE, what If we could flow in self love and completely detach from the bad feeling and focus on the Good instead, What if we could trust that no matter what happens, each person we encounter means we are another step closer to getting what’s truly meant for us.
It may not feel like it but those who come into your life and leave are actually really helping get you to where you need to be, they’re like stepping stones and you can trust that. I love bumping into new people now, it’s fun, playful and I feel excited about what they’re going to show me, help me to understand or grow some more because there’s only love now, no fear.
That’s Self Love, that’s the Truth of You (my soul) and that’s True Beauty. Love Lucy is more than just skincare products, they are infused with my energy so using them will help you to Embrace your life, we are not here for long, Love it, Live it regardless of what happens, in any situation, enjoy the experience and look for the Good. Self love always wins and so does making lemonade 🍋 xx
